Hi blogger ,
the last time I posted here was last year IM BACK.

It has been one year already ._.
Hopefully 2011 would be a wonderful year :) it has to be anyway idc I'm being a spolit brat hahahah. School's reopening in 3days(?) and I'm fucking not prepared urgh bleh. Shall have new year resolutions this year AND I SHALL KEEP TO THEM.

1. EAT AND SNACK LESSER lmao I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT
2. Pass all subjects (?) STUDYYYY
3. Spend lesser money
4. Sleep lesser (?!)
5. Keep my room in a neat state ._.

I hope I keep these resolutions omg, it's like only 5 ._. 2010 is my worst year man I hope 2011 wouldn't be like 2010. Hmm blogger I'm leaving you to rot till I feel like blogging again I guess, which would be like idk when LMAO. Parents coming back tmr D: the end of my havoc days urgh.I wonder what would happen this year, I can't seem to get over the fact it's 2011 I MEAN LIKE 2010 WAS ONLY YESTERDAY ?!?!?

2011, I'm going to smile throughout this year.It shan't be a year wasted like 2010.
2010 BYE IM NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK AT YOU.

OMG EPIC SHITNESS.

GOOD BYE 2HOPE'2010

I shall thank a few people ;)

Clarissa Leong ;D
Thank you for being so nice ;) and so gay( though i can kill you for that). You helped me alot like really really hahahahah, and your ultimate retardness helps me to laugh my butt off. LET"S HOPE WE GET INTO SAME CLASS :D.
Brittany Goh and Chew Yu Qian ;D
Thank you for being such gay retards and keep saying how much money i spend?!?!?! But yay your are such nice gays hahahahahahahahaa brittany i hope you'll win yuqian's heart over! ;D

I'm still quite happy that i got option C O_O like seriously everyone even me, myself thought i would only be offered option A.BUT, at least working hard for EOYS paid off ;) though it's not good but at least i tried ! I really pray hard to get into a class I want, I hope luck would help me pass again.And i passed science for EOYS ! i failed 2 this time ;) it's an improvement already ! Hopefully, this holidays I'll buck up and study, play super hard and FIND A JOB. gosh who knows how in need of money I am now man.

I'm glad this year's coming to an end.Like this rollercoaster ride is hopefully going to be peaceful soon, I don't want another ride like this again.Why do everything have to drag you into the picture. My fully healed and nice picture.So much for trying man, I'm dying inside. I hate how sometimes I have to smile, a bittersmile.I was going to break, but you didn't care anyway. And life doesn't stop for anybody, it's speeding. But I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens. Afterall, the world is a painful piece of shit. And yes, you don't know how I feel. But I don't care anymore, I'm not going to anymore. I'm sick and tired of trying to hide the mess I am. I need a break. Walking home alone is so nice, finally I get a break from everything. Now I just need a big huge rainstorm, walk in it and let it wash away everything. I realise how much I love alone times now.And thanks for everything anyway.

Gosh, who knew rollercoasters suck so much.

But, holidays would be the best time to recover. I have tons of times to forget and erase it away. Shall make full use of this holiday,I must. And anyway PRAY HARD FOR MY CLASS NEXT YEAR ;/

And seriously omg !@#$%^&*()_ LAH stop being so !@#$%^&&*()_ man get a life.

ROAR.
freak i just realised when i blog it's only to vent anger, when im sad, or when im bored ._.

So yeah, I'm feeling depressed again ._.
out of the blue.
I guess it's cause I'm tired and stressed
I have to hyponotise myself to stay positive. goshes.
I'm such a fail --" , i tell people to stay positive and encourage them but i fail to do it to myself.
omg how weird can i get ._.
But, yeah whatever my life is fail.
I just realised that there is nothing great about myself, how loser have I been living my 14 years of life.How much i hated myself and how much I wish time could go back and mostly how much I want to make up to people and things I've hurt or neglected in my life.
And after thinking so much, i just realised I don't deserve to stay in this world called Earth.

Maybe i won't fall because of this set backs.
It's me who made me fall. Badly. Painfullly.
And I would not be able to make it up.
Yeah whatever. I suck, yeah I'm a total stupid failure loser.
This life is not for me.
I rather my life to be like I'm a monkey.
Running around without worries.
Either I survive or die. That's it, no worries.
FREAK I REALLY WANNA BE A MONKEY./crys&whines/

/zombies around/ I want to throw this brain away.
I hate life.
I shall play safe from now onwards.
I'm afraid. I can't trust myself anymore.
I will not show my weakness ever again. Never Ever.
I'll not make the same mistakes I made.

I will survive, I'll not be burnt.
I can . I will . I must .

Fate, Stop playing with me. I beg you.

Dear Huang Xin Yi,
I promise I'll never shed a tear again.
I'll protect myself, I'll live on happily ever after.
Even if i have to be half alive.

Wow I just realised how dead my blog is --"
heee, and the previous post was .__.
nvm, THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE LALALAA
but soon over T_T
nvm shalallalaa, universal studio was funnnn!
hahahah but scary.

gosh i promised myself to study for eoy this holiday but i didn't
except starbucks? for oral?!
roar i feel pro -- or not .

wow fuck.
I think my term 3 ppr willl be screwed. wait it is screwed.
i fucking failed like everything badly besides one geog and idk what but whatever everything else is.. shit, math is like 5/40 how pro can i get --. goshes im scared what is i fail my overall DD:freak balls then ill be screwed like wires man . roar .i'm moody now , out of random. whats wrong with me D; freak freak freak , i have to pass bio to pass science , next math must pass with FLYING colours thats harder then going to heaven freak and week 5 isn't making my day any better.

FUCK BALLS MAN

OMG I FINALLY POSTING AFTER LIKE I DONT KNOW HOW LONG!
HEE CAUSE OF A NEW LAPTOP ;D i broke the previous one by accident hee
JEALOUS MUCH EHS ITS LIKE RED SO SEXY AHAHAHAHHHAHAHA
goshes i really need sleep omg T_T
SHALALALALALA

IS ANYONE WILLING TO DO MY MATH HOLIDAY HOMEWORK FOR ME; I HAVENT STARTED AND I OWE IT FOR 1 WEEK ALREADY SHUCKS TT SOMEONE HELP MEEEEEEEEEEE