I don't know why I feel so uneasy now , its like elephants on my heart .
Everything is going too fast for me to catch up, my results are so screwed I don't know what will happen when my ppr comes back . Everything is just now right , the earth have to move slower. I thought you understand me , but actually you don't , putting on a mask and smile is getting really hard for me now.Saying okay isn't okay anymore. If wonderland did exist i would stay there forever and never come back . I don't want to actually give a damn anymore,everything is pushing me off the sharp end of the cliff .I just want to dissapear into thin air and wake up from this nightmare being 5 again . Back then everything seem so perfect yet its so distant.

The word perfect is just a fucking word that everyone wants to achieve , but lets be different . Inperfection is me . I shall count the miracles that happened.

Goshes , I feel so ... , and geog is making my brains to die D;
No miracles are happening ,
nvm .
MAD HATTER SHALL BE MY IDOL FROM NOW ONWARDS